Yesterday I had an appointment with my OB. Her clinic hours was 10am - 12 noon. I arrived at around 10:30am and since I know most of the time she comes in late I decided to eat lunch first at the canteen of Las Pinas Medical Center. I had one rice and spicy chicken. Annie, Dra. Protacio's assistant, says that my doctor is coming and she is on her way. Time pass by and good thing I was watching "Showtime" so I am not bored while waiting. She arrived at almost 12 noon at she find out that she no longer have Depo-Provera in stock so she asked me to go back the next day instead. Wew! I waited for almost 2 hrs for nothing. Anyway instead of getting mad which I know will not change the situation I just went home and think of a positive thing that I should do. I decided then to have a family time after my injection. I told my husband to bring the kids at SM Southmall so that we can stroll and have some snacks. For those who doesn't know what Depo-Provera is, it is a vaccine given every 3months to avoid pregnancy. This is an alternate option of taking pills which I don't like. One side effect of this is you will not have your monthly menstruation.
I got this email from one of my team mate and would like to share it to all women out there. I find this touching.
Why Women Cry?
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"
God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,
yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.." "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."
We are not in good financial condition right now. This all started when I give birth last July of 2009 without any savings. Aside from that since it is the start of the school year we also need to pay for David's tuition fee and buy his school materials. After I give birth I was on leave for 78 days without a salary. I've mention on my other blog that I am the only one working. To be able to survive we made a cash loan to a bank and also I used my credit card in buying some of our needs.
So I now I am paying 2 credit cards, my cash loan and I am now starting to pay amortization for our house. One more thing that adds up to our monthly expenses are my baby needs like milk, diaper and vaccines which are quite expensive. I've been to lousy for the past months forgetting about God and working on my own. I guess this is a wake up call to me. I thank God though I've been an unfaithful servant He was still providing my needs on His own and unexpected ways. Truly God has an amazing love. I am sorry Father for all my short comings and I pray to thee to be my guide in all of my decision.
It was David's 3rd Quarter Exam last Tuesday and Wednesday. He was absent last Thursday and Friday due to fever so he was not able to attend to some of their lessons. As a nursery student they have 6 Subjects Christian Living, Reading, Language, Math, Science and PE. They only have 4 exams which are Language & Math on Tuesday and Reading & Science on Wednesday.
I don't have enough patience in teaching David, there are times that I would get mad and shout at him while we are studying. I don't mean to hurt him but it just that recently I noticed my temper is uncontrollable and I don't know why. I get easily mad even on simple things. Anyways, I am hoping to see good grades by next week. We have an agreement that he have only few mistakes I will buy him a toy.
It is nice to see him learning new things at school little by little. Seeing him learning how to write and different new things is an already an achievement for me.
For the past month I noticed that Rhaine enjoys biting his pacifier. Instead of sucking it she would bite it using the side of her gum. Yesterday my husband said that she has a high temperature, around 38 celcius. He gave her paracetamol to remedy it. I told her maybe she will have a teeth because it looks like her lower gum is swollen. I searched online and some pediatrician says that teething should not cause diarrhea or fever. Most of the symptoms are below:
• Drooling (which can lead to a facial rash)
• Gum swelling and sensitivity
• Irritability or fussiness
• Biting behavior
• Refusing food
• Sleep problems
My little girl has all of these symptoms and I am excited to see her smiling with her first teeth.
Rhaine at 6 months is now starting to talk little by little. At first she can only say "ta, ta" but now she would say "da-da-da" followed by "di". His dad is very happy because she can say "dadi" even though we are not sure if she is calling him.
I would not get surprise if "daddy" would be her first word since they are always together. Right now I am the only one working and he is the one taking care of our kids. David's first word is "daddy" as well. I know after a while she will be able to call me mommy too.
I just had a chat with my old crush way back in high school. Time really pass by so fast. He asked me what happen to the song that he gave me. I was unable to react but I guess we really are not meant to be. Every time I hear this song it reminds me of him.
Somewhere Down the Road by Barry Manilow
We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time
Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay
But
Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong with me
Sometimes goodbyes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home
And
Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so
We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause
Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong
With me
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time
Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay
But
Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong with me
Sometimes goodbyes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home
And
Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so
We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause
Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
will come to see
That you belong
With me
We visited Dra. Estorninos at SM South Mall Casa Medica last Sunday. She was also Ron David's pedia when he was still an infant. We left our house around 9am so that we can have Rhaine listed right away since her doctor always have a lot of patients. We arrived at 10am which is the start time of her clinic and we are already number 6 on the list. Good thing two patients are unable to wait for her since she is a few minutes late and Rhaine got called right away.
She now weights 7.1kg and the doctor said she is longer compare to other kids at her age, 6 months. Rhaine started crying when the doctor lay her down and started to measure the circumference of her head and her height. She cried much louder when she was given a shot for Pneumoccocal vaccine. The doctor said she will not get fever which is very good. Aside from her cherifer vitamin I was told to also give her Ferlin as an iron supplement. Our next visit will be on February 21 where she will be given a measles vaccine. Thank God it is much cheaper, I was told it would cost only P1200.
Dra. Estorninos also said we could give solid food gradually to Rhaine. We can start with plain rice flavor of Cerelac with an increasing amount everyday for a week and then we can start giving her other veggies like mash potato or squash. After two weeks we can give her mixed flavor of Cerelac like wheat & banana etc. I am very happy to see my baby growing up, I am excited to see her walking and calling me Mommy.
Why is this happening to me?
How long will I suffer?
Is this really my destiny?
Is this the result of my disobedience?
I feel so down and I feel so blue
Thanks to God for my little boy
Whom I get strength to move on
Thanks to my little boy who gives me smile
Who appreciates every little thing that I do
I love you, that’s why I say I do
I love you, that’s why I am trying to understand you.
I don’t see any goals
I don’t see any plan
Do you have any dream at all for our family?
There are times though I am hurting
My eyes are already dry for tears to flow
You always say you love us
You always say that you don’t want to lose me
But I don’t see any effort on your side at all
Many times I’ve been thinking of moving on
I’ve been thinking if what I am fighting for is right
I see that David loves you so much,
He doesn’t want to lose you.
Lord, give me patience.
Lord, give me strength.
Having a broken family is not my dream
If that happens that will be my worst nightmare
I don’t have big ambition
I am not asking for a mansion
Rhaine Danielle is 6 months old now and is scheduled to have Pneumococcal vaccine this coming Sunday. It is quite expensive because the previous vaccine that she had comes with 6 vaccine in one only cost P3500 while this one cost P4500.
I found online that this is a good protection against septicemia and meningitis. Right now she has colds and I think I read somewhere that vaccine should not be given if baby has colds, I am not sure though. I hope she will not get fever after the shot. I will prepare her milk before taking the shot to calm her down and stop her from crying after the painful prick.
